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feb 23…

found – this morning at breakfast with my mother and M (mom is in town for a vist this week) we realized that today is the 4th anniversary of us living here in SF.

seems like it was sooner, and longer ago than that. i remember the trauma of the day, getting the cats all drugged up and on the plane. the car ride to the airport in Houston and the crazy time at security with the kittys. looking down at the scars that i still have on my hand from Clawdio basically freaking out on the plane ride. the extra hour delay on the ground as the cats start to wake up from their drugged haze. and then the ride to our new home, and the relief that we had finally arrived. looking over the new place and just learning how to breathe after all we went through to get here. what a day it was indeed.

lost – today was E’s birthday. should have been 41 today.

we had always celebrated what we called the “between day” for both of us at once. mine on the 22 – his on the 24 – made sense to celebrate on the 23 for us both. probably the only two people in the world that had a combination Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle and Playgirl party. i still have to remind myself that we don’t do that anymore, but it is hard not to think about.

been gone a long time, but i still miss him every day and wish that he was here. i think that he would have loved living here in SF, and maybe should have been here. perhaps in some ways he is…

what else will this day hold in future anniversaries?