icourtland!

…don’t know when [he'll] get back again…

feeling a bit down and lonely today. Marcus is down in Texas trying to help out as best he can with some family issues. he is going to be there as long as it takes him, could be a week or a month – maybe longer if it is needed.

this is hard. i did not realize how hard it was.

i used to do this to him all the time back when we first moved here. i would go off back to Texas for Scrarborough Faire or TRF for 2 and a half months at at time, maybe – just maybe – coming in for a visit sometime half way through for a couple of days. and all the while here was Marcus trying to keep himself busy and having to live a life alone when he really did not want to. and i was so busy with my life and the reasons that i was in Texas to start with that i very rarely got a chance to be more than a touch bored from time to time. now i understand.

i always missed him while i was away – but not like this.

in the end, i know he will come home. maybe a little battle-worn and weary, but he will be home. i just have to have patience and send him as much support from a distance as i can, and that will have to be enough for now.

it still sux.