icourtland!

been quite a while since i sat down to write on the blog. since i started journaling over a year ago i find that i get so much out on paper by hand that i just don’t find that i need to share on a blog quite as often as i used to. of course i say that and i was really doing for a while was posting the latest funny YouTube video and funny picture, and not a heck of a lot else.

the last real post was way back on Imbolc, so i misses writing about Ostara entirely, even though it was an amazing night and i had a lot of stuff going on. that night followed up by a Brotherhood of the Moon full Moon circle in which i also had a lot to do really drained me. probably why i did not write a blog entry about them.

the big CAYA Beltane was last Friday night, a day late but what can you do? we try to get as close to the right day on a Friday or Saturday night and just celebrate like it is the exact date.

we had this at a private residence up in the Oakland hills. the lady that offered the space to us has been attending our circles on and off for a while, and had a space that she had created in her large backyard garden that needed people to feel really like true sacred space to her. and what a garden it is – it held about 40 of us a little on the tight side, but was so beautiful and perfect for the night. surrounded with flowers and trees, a beautiful altar set-up and 2 fire pits burning high.

and the whole event was to be a masquerade, so everyone was in some kind of costume and had masks on, from some very simple ones to some that were quite ornate. the masks and costumes combined with the wonderful garden made the whole night feel like a fairy excursion. magickal indeed!

the big surprise for me was when a little less than halfway through ritual when it was time to call and crown the May king and Queen. i knew this was part of the night’s events, but i did not know that they would be calling MY NAME as the May King! so much for having a night that i got to just kick back and celebrate instead of presenting or “working.” so i approached the center and was “challenged” to prove my worthiness of the role, and then afterwards a crown of leaves was placed on my head and i was named the May King. i really felt pretty special, and later having everyone pass between the fire pits to be welcomed and acknowledged by the May King and Queen and bowing to each of us was humbling and really made me feel quite special.

it had been a weird emotional week for me, and having this happen let me put a lot of that aside and let me know that i really am on the right path for me and doing the work that i am supposed to be doing. it has been a long time since i felt that special, and even more rarely in a large group of people. my heart was smiling quite a lot for the next several days.

but then back to the real world – been busy working and trying to keep as caught up as i can with 2 magazines at the same time. trying to get out of the house and do some walking every day as i can. just the day-to-day stuff and life as usual.

as long as i make the time for the celebrations and the magickal times, the everyday will just have to be what it is.