tears
i tried so hard – so very damn hard – not to give up hope. the numbers were not what i wanted to see last night before bed, but it was still early and a lot of ballots had not been counted.
this morning i almost jumped out of bed to go and look, sure that the story would be different this morning. this was not to be. but still, i held so tight to the hope. still over 2 million ballots to check, and with a lead of just over 400,000 there was still so much possibility, so much promise. it could still happen. we could still win.
5 minutes ago i finally pulled up enough courage to look again – and i can hardly stop the tears.
people in this state voted more rights to animals than they did to me and Marcus. caged animals now have more freedoms than i do. i have nothing against animals – but that is just not right.
hope has just been ripped from my soul.
Courtland – I’m so sorry to hear this. I almost don’t believe it. It’s really sad that, among all the good news from last night, there is still such a big item of bad news. I guess 95% of precincts have reported, so I suppose it’s still theoretically possible that it will fail (I think? maybe? I don’t know the actual numbers). In either case, I will definitely keep you and Marcus, and several other folks, in my thoughts.
Cian said this on November 5th, 2008 at 12:55 pm
Courtland — My heart is breaking for you. I’m sorry that Caifornia took a trip back to the Dark Ages, but mostly that you are in so much pain. I am keeping you and Marcus in my prayers. I miss you in Texas at this time of the year!
Betsy (Elisabet) said this on November 10th, 2008 at 5:41 pm
I wish there were a way to make the supporters of 8 read all the gay blogs that occurred the day after the elections. So much pain. So much hurt. So much anger. They need to take responsibility for causing it. They need to understand that their actions *hurt* other human beings.
Guy said this on November 19th, 2008 at 11:00 am