icourtland!

what a strange week.

the key word this week seems to be “change” or maybe “transition”

full of beginnings and of endings. so many of each happening all at once, some really good ups and some really deep downs.

2 very good friends finally get through all of the stress the last few months brought on as they planned their wedding, to actually “do the deed” last night and start a new part of their lives in a very nice commitment ceremony. 2 other special friends call it quits at pretty much the same time. joy and sorrow.

my relationship with the dra house, another ending as well. a beginning, in its way, of a life free of the responsibilties of that job. it did give me great joy, but was a constant reminder of very different times for me.

the real beginning of some hard medical stuff for Marcus, hopefully the end of all his problems that are a part of it.

and through it all, here i am. not sure what to feel. knowing full well that i should be simply taking the joy and spreading it, being a positive force in life and to those around me. problem is that for all the joy of seeing all the good friends in from out of town for the wedding, it made me miss those back in Texas that i have not been able to see for so long. the other parts of my family and my heart that i miss so very much every day.

so i find the will to be a part of the joy when i can, be whole with the ones i can be, miss and grieve on my own.