icourtland!

this was the day – the middle day – the day we celebrated our almost co-birthdays.

mine was yesterday – his was tomorrow, my best friend througha LOT of years – Edwin. since we were only 2 days apart, it made sense for us to celebrate at the same time in the “space between.” always ends up being a bit of a sad-ish day for me. i still miss that boy an awful lot even though it has been more years than i can remember since he left us.

as i spent time in the City today, could not help but think of him a few times. the place that he should have been – sometimes more than me i think – and the life here that he should have had. i hope that he would be happy with the person that i ended up being, would be a bit proud of who i am these days. some of it is due to him after all.

we always talked of going to california. actually LA was the goal way back then, but if we had ever made it here we would have stayed – no doubt in my mind. at times i wonder what he would think of this place i call home now, would he have loved it or hated it, what places would he have liked the most and what places would he have hung out in. doesn’t matter in the long run i guess – just that i think of him.

that i remember him – and miss him – and still love that silly bugger – that has to be enough.